I have always had a love for my cold beers, nachos, wings and late night dancing, and working out at the gym. But as the years pass, I took on more responsibilities, got comfortable in a relationship - I GOT LAZY! I made up every excuse in the book why I couldn't workout or take better care of myself. I can remember Chad trying to convince me to go workout, and I refused. I said I was tired, I was too busy, and I had even become bitter towards anything fitness related. It was a week before my 31 birthday and I looked in the mirror and I was disgusted with myself. "How could you let yourself slip so far?"
I was remember feeling so angry, my brain was foggy, my grades were shit, poor student, my relationship was going to shit and my whole life felt overwhelming, (when it rains it pours, right?) Or at least that was MY mindset just a few months back!
My comfort? Alcohol, cigarettes and chips --> because that was the only stress relief that I knew. But that also didn't get me very far...it left me feeling terrible about myself and a failure. Back in January I remember trying to find a cute outfit- but couldn't find ANYTHING in my closet that fit me. When I went shopping I had NO luck either, instead it made me feel worse! That's when I hit my breaking point. Enough was enough, so I ordered the 21 Day Fix Extreme. I've always had the mindset, "Go big or go home." Those first few months were THE WORSE. I grumbled A LOT! I missed some workouts, I had cheat meals (maybe more than I'd like to admit) I lost a lot of weight and inches. The key is: I NEVER GAVE UP!
In April I got news about my health (nothing major), but it did make me think twice about my eating habits, exercise, my future family, etc. This was a HUGE eye opener and that's when I sat down, and thought about my "WHY". Why do I want to be healthy, fit? It’s scary once you sit down and think about it (I think that is why so many of us don't). So that was the day I told Chad I am 100% committed to the workouts, clean eating, personal development etc. I made it into my daily routine and I the only question I ask myself now is "WHY didn't I think of this or start this sooner"?
Now? I can honestly say I am way more stable, I feel confident again, this last semester was the best grades I've seen in FOREVER!
When I get stressed out, instead of running to alcohol or cigarettes, I crank the music, dance, sing, go to a run, WORKOUT, make myself some clean eats, and play with my dog, read some personal development. I make sure to be wake up each morning with a grateful heart, and try to see the positive side of everything.
It's amazing how you can go from hating working out, feeling like your life is on a downward spiral, to clean eating and fitness becomes your 'normal'. I have managed to SAVE money, and make a half decent income from it as well. And best if all? It doesn’t feel like a job to me, and I feel extremely fulfilled.
I sit here, giggling to myself, thinking about how a few months ago I hated fitness and health and worried about my finances. Fast forward to today- I LOVE working out, I feel great. WHY? Because I have the most amazing accountability group, with some incredibly BEAUTIFUL people who never give up!
Love,
Krista xx
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